I need to know the truth. Not just what you think I can handle. I need all of it. It’s the only way I’ll know if I can do this.
Favorite Jax/Tara Moments | 3x01 SOTara: When Donna was killed, those things you said to me in the hospital about my life being a series of hit and runs, that my face was the only one you saw.
Jax: I shouldn’t have said that.
Tara: It was the truth. I have created this very serious life for myself. And when I’m inside it, I barely know myself. I have these moments sometimes in the middle of my surgeries when suddenly I’m aware of my hands, you know, doing these extraordinary things. And I think ‘Whose hands are these? What am I doing here?’When I’m with you, I never ask that question.
Jax: I’m not the answer. Look at me, look at this.
Tara: I’m always looking at it. My brain never stops. Why am I here? Should I be here? Am I afraid to stay, afraid to go, afraid to be a mother? It’s endless. I drive myself crazy.
Jax: None of that matters.
Tara: I know. That’s become so clear to me. The noise doesn’t matter. We don’t know who we are until we’re connected to someone else. We’re just better human beings when we’re with the person we’re supposed to be with. I wasn’t supposed to leave. I belong here.
What I hope for Tara and what I hope for myself as the actor playing Tara are sometimes terribly at odds. But my hope for Tara is that her strength continues to grow and that she isn’t destroyed in the process… she’s much smarter than a lot of the folks around her and I hope that she finds ways to employ that intelligence more fully. I think ultimately her “way out”, whatever that means, will be through her smarts and her growing savvy about the way things work within the context of this world.- Maggie Siff for Regard Magazine [X]
Can you tell us something about yourself that most people don’t know or would never guess?
I love to sing. When I was a kid I knew I was going to be a performer but I hated acting. I did little musicals in grade school and I couldn’t wait to get through the acting part to get to the song. When high school came around, I got into Music and Art (the Fame School in New York City) for singing but I turned it down to go to Bronx Science which is a nerdy magnet school. My parents really wanted me to get a good education and felt there would be time for performing down the road if I was still interested. I think of my path here as a twisty one that could have landed me in an entirely different place if I had made a different choice all those years ago.